Pretty Close to Making it Just Right

Yeah, I know its three days after Valentine’s Day, but this is the first chance I have had to get my thoughts together–and I think at the end of the day things worked out pretty well, almost exactly as we had planned.

Sure there were some tense moments leading up, but in the end things went well.

Keeping Focus Where it Should Be

After a 2-3 week search, Mistress is back in the workforce as of today.  Given the hard reality of the economic climate nationwide, and especially here in NYC-its a pretty nice testament to her that she was able to find a new job relatively quickly.

Who knows if this will be the right opportunity for her, but its so much easier to be in a position and keep an eye out than to be under the feeling of desperation.

And I know for her it was not an easy couple of weeks. There was a lot of pressure-some real, some self imposed, some inadvertently added by me…but through it all I tried to keep Mistress focused on the bigger picture, the task at hand.

Sometimes it was helping with resume writing and reviewing cover letters. Other times it was doing a scan for jobs or companies that would be a good fit for her. Other times it was just being there to hear her and assure her that this was not the end, and tomorrow is a new day.

I am so proud that Mistress got through all of this, that we got through all of this-and today starts a new chapter.  And this is not the D/s part of our relationship.  This is the BF/GF part and this is the part where we can be best friends too…where we can rely on one another for help and support.

Its not nearly as good as reading about a night at Paddles, or being taken by Mistress, or holding her for the night while our naked bodies are pressed to one another–but for us its just as important.

Good luck Mistress, I love you.

Getting to the end of the line…

Not a traditional D/s relationship blog. Rather its a mid-point look at a stressful week, and the questions I am pondering.

things to be thankful for

So, here it is Thanksgiving weekend, and its that time where you get to look back, and realize all that you have to be thankful for–and as I have mentioned, I have a lot to be thankful for.  Perhaps its the trade off to having an anniversary so close to Thanksgiving–the work is already done.

But in this case, I want to perhaps be more specific, perhaps be more narrow, and highlight not just why I love my Mistress, but why the love I have for my Mistress is growing.

A big part of why I am thankful is because with Mistress, I feel encouraged to take a chance and show her how much I love her.  For instance, I gave her a child’s toy as an anniversary present–and she loved it-I hope because she knows it came from the heart.

Today, I took my girls for a day in the city, and because of the holiday and some other issues on the home front, I have not seen Mistress as much this week as I normally do–but we have been talking and texting daily–and I feel really close to her.  So, we “arranged” a chance meeting at the Museum of Natural History today, and Mistress was able to meet my kids, and we were able to spend the day together.

So, this was not completely an easy thing to do. Mistress and I tend to do a lot of PDA’s (public displays of affection), and today we would have to be on our best behaviour.  So, when I wanted to jump Mistress in a row boat on the lake in Central Park, I sat on my hands.

Not to jump ahead…

This meeting was important not only for me, but for Mistress, and I think the time was right.  Among other things that I do-some better than others I freely admit-I am a dedicated parent. I want to be the best father I can be for my kids (and I don’t think that is unique at all).  But its a different side of me, and one that is really important. One of the things that I am trying very hard to do with my Mistress is to un-compartmentalize my life.  To show her all sides of me, rather than just hte parts I want to show, and my kids are an important part.  Also, Mistress said to me recently that she thought she would not meet my kids until they were teens–and that is a long way away.

So, after we wandered through the museum some, we went to lunch and then over to the park.  I noticed during the day that the conversation with my kids and Mistress got easier as things went along.  I pushed it some when I got them to start to tickle Mistress, and litterally break ice some.

Mistress was a really good sport in all of this.  I know-since our first date, Mistress is not a kids type.  But to her credit, she rolled with it.  She engaged the girls, and listend to them.

So, I am thankful for the day I was able to spend with my kids and my love in the city. I am thankful that Mistress did so well with my kids, and most of all, I am thankful that I belong to Mistress–there is no one more lucky than I.

here we go….

so lets jump right in–and i can try to get everyone on the same page. somewhere along the line i’ll put some additional posts from my MySpace http://www.myspace.com/lethrs…they have some good background.

but the upshot is..i am a long time closet kinkster. i am a submissve man at heart. and over the years i have acted out on this…and then usually get it out of my system and tuck it away.  i had reached the point where i was aching to revisit my kinky side. because of a myriad of reasons i decided to go the pro-Domme route.

i had off and on been chatting with Maitresse Scarlette Stangata on collarme and on myspace.  to be honest, i am not sure what drew me in. it could be her writings on a bunch of boards etc.  for me, i am at ease as a sub. what i crave is a Mistress who is equally at ease.  Maitresse seemed that way. so after pulling it together, and screwing on some courage-i booked a session.

this was about a year ago.

after that one session – which admittedly i was very nervous about and did not go well-i left and was really not sure what to do next. we kind of chatted about perhaps doing dinner or something–to get to know one another and hopefully make a second session better. i was up for it.

at one point during our session, Mistress told me She worked in retail at a chocolate store in the city. information i tucked away.  a few days and a couple of text messages later-i had a really bad day at work a bunch of shit just went wrong. it was cold, and i decided to walk along alone in the city-dark streets in the cold.  somewhere in the general area between hell’s kitchen and times square i walked by a chocolate store–and with the bruises on my ass still prominent i was jarred back to that night. suddenly my crappy day was replaced by a good memory.

so i texted Mistress and let her know. i gave her a condensed version of the story on a text message. we closed our dinner plans a few nights later.

a couple of dates and meetings later–Mistress and i were suddenly in a deep passionate kiss on a street along manhattan’s upper west side-and i was slowly transforming from sub/client to boyfriend.

almost a year has gone by from that first night to now–and we have had our ups and downs in our relationship. but in the end-i am deeply in love with my Mistress-and so this foray into how to be a kinky couple in nyc has blossomed.