The Fleeting Moments that Last

I can still feel the way Mistress snuggles up to me as I nibble on her neck. I can still taste her lips pressed against mine….

And it was all to sort as I watched Mistress’ subway continue uptown.

A Glass Half Full Outlook

So instead of stealing away for a dinner once or twice a week–Mistress and I are now able to steal away for a cup of coffee or lunch every now and then. We still have our weekly night-which we try to makespecial. But the time together is not what it once was.

Obviously this is not super-ideal. Mistress has blogged about this calling it “the trade off.”

Chivalry, chivalrous and devotion

Mistress and I were talking about chivalry and the scene the other night. Yeah, its kind of hard to believe that the two can be mutually exclusive-yet somehow there are times I have seen at events where it appears to be true.

On July 4th, Mistress and I spent the better part of the day and evening together, and just some basic things made me think that chivalry is not quite dead (at least for me) and its not about D/s its about good manners-what I like to call wiping your own ass.

First came some help with her laundry. Mistress does her laundry in a laundromat across the street from her place.  I was there to help haul the clean (and hot) clothes up the stairs.

Then came a quick run to the supermarket.  This was the first time Mistress and I went to the supermarket together.  Essentially, my role here was to carry the haul up the stairs of her second floor walk up-straight muscle job.  I am only to happy to do so.  There are a lot of things that I can’t do-carry a small cart of groceries up two flights of stairs I am only too happy.

Finally, Mistress and I went for a nice dinner out at an out-door cafe near her house. Mistress got a little chilly during the evening, so I made the 9 block walk back to her place to get her a sweatshirt.

You could say its my role to do these things-after all we live a D/s relationship with FLR dynamic.

But that’s not it. Its about manners and being able to wipe my own ass.

Appreciation for the Smaller Things

Saturday night’s have become really special for me in the last year or so. Its the time I carve out and devote to Mistress-and by and large we manage to make sure that we make that standing night work for us.

As I have blogged here, some night’s is fet night, other nights we just hang out and watch TV, other nights we’ll go out to dinner or drinks, sometimes we’ll see some friends–the important part to the night for me is that we are together, no watching the time and we just get to be with one another.

Even When I am Not On the “A” Game, Mistress Loves Me….ahhhhh

I realize that I have kind of neglected this space some over the last few weeks, and its not intentional.  I am kind of on the verge of having a new blog to post–which is kind of a follow up to the last post I made (two weeks ago).  One of the reasons that has been so tough in coming out is because of the super hectic schedule I have been keeping the last two weeks….

I was in LA for two days two weeks ago, red-eyed home to make a 5 hour drive to a weekend long family event. Home in time to plan out a day trip to Boston (from NYC) and then make that trip.

In between, I have had to deal wtih a bunch of homefront shit, crazy last minute scheduling there and my oldest daughter’s birthday (she is still under 10 so these are really important to her).

Which brings us to tonight.

Mistress is really starting to do well with her new career in financial planning (if anyone needs some insights let me know and I will hook you up with Mistress for some consulting).  She is doing so well that our time together is paying the price right now–but this is a short term thing–and I want Mistress to keep on pushing it and be super successful.

Tonight was our chance to have some time together this week.  And in my mind, I sleep walked through the dinner.  I am just so fucking tired–beyond that point where you are over-tired and can function.  I just feel slow and tonight I felt like I was about two minutes behind the conversation–so I did not do my job holding up my end.

The good news though is that Mistress is so excited about her new career, she loves talking about it.

The other good news is that Mistress knows all of the details and this was not a problem.

And I am on my own case becaue to me, time with Mistress is premium, and I want it to be special. In my mind, tonight I was witty and full of energy.

In reality, I barely kept up with conversation and puncuated every statement I made with a yawn.

Still though Mistress hugged me, kissed me and made me feel special…

And this is why I love Mistress–because every now and then, I don’t have to bring the “A” game, and Mistress will cover for me.

Perhaps soon, I will be ready to take on that other post…in the mean time, no one has a better partner, lover, Mistress, girlfriend and friend than I do.

Trying to Be Selfless

One of the highest traits a sub or slave can have for their Mistress is to be selfless–to give their self to their Mistress. Its not a new concept to me, and its a characteristic I hope to live up to for my Mistress.

But there are times when I am conflicted with being selfless–and I am pretty sure the opposite of selfless is selfish…and perhaps I am really somewhere in between.

Pretty Close to Making it Just Right

Yeah, I know its three days after Valentine’s Day, but this is the first chance I have had to get my thoughts together–and I think at the end of the day things worked out pretty well, almost exactly as we had planned.

Sure there were some tense moments leading up, but in the end things went well.

Date night with my Mistress

You know how it goes this time of year, right? So much to do, so little time–so easy to get priorities out of whack.

So, it was really important for me to make sure I was able to set up a date night with Mistress this week.

connected, ueber connected and just having fun

so, last night i got a text from my Mistress–and She kind of needed a hug and some company-so we rustled up dinner plans on comparitively short notice (a couple of hours). which given all that is going on around me right now-work and personal is pretty good.  and we did all of that via text message.

now to put in perspective for those who will read this at a later date-last night was also the vice-presidential debate. Without getting too far into it because of what i do for a living, i am directly tied to events surrounding each of the debates as well.  but i think i am good enough at what i do, and connected enough where i can spend quality time with my Mistress and still make sure i am on top of what is going on at the office.

to accomplish this-email on my RIM, text messages and a random old-school phone call (even to my mobile phone).  pretty vanilla stuff so far i know….

so as i am heading home (and missing the debate) i started to follow what was going on via twitter-first on my RIM then on my laptop (gotta love that sprint air card).

then Mistress texts me and tells me She is taking a bath in a nice vanilla bath bomb (i had to ask what this was too). and we started a nice little give and take via text message that if not x-rated certainly got to an r-rating…when i described in as much detail as text messages would allow how i would wash my Mistress in the bath…fingering Her, sucking Her nipples and letting Her sponge cascade across Her body.

yeah–it was kind of a nice distraction from trying to filter the bs commentary on the debate from the actual cool info i was getting via twitter.

the net was–i realized that for work, information and just plain fun–connected is a good thing. its knowing how to use the tools and gather hte information that really helps.

here we go….

so lets jump right in–and i can try to get everyone on the same page. somewhere along the line i’ll put some additional posts from my MySpace http://www.myspace.com/lethrs…they have some good background.

but the upshot is..i am a long time closet kinkster. i am a submissve man at heart. and over the years i have acted out on this…and then usually get it out of my system and tuck it away.  i had reached the point where i was aching to revisit my kinky side. because of a myriad of reasons i decided to go the pro-Domme route.

i had off and on been chatting with Maitresse Scarlette Stangata on collarme and on myspace.  to be honest, i am not sure what drew me in. it could be her writings on a bunch of boards etc.  for me, i am at ease as a sub. what i crave is a Mistress who is equally at ease.  Maitresse seemed that way. so after pulling it together, and screwing on some courage-i booked a session.

this was about a year ago.

after that one session – which admittedly i was very nervous about and did not go well-i left and was really not sure what to do next. we kind of chatted about perhaps doing dinner or something–to get to know one another and hopefully make a second session better. i was up for it.

at one point during our session, Mistress told me She worked in retail at a chocolate store in the city. information i tucked away.  a few days and a couple of text messages later-i had a really bad day at work a bunch of shit just went wrong. it was cold, and i decided to walk along alone in the city-dark streets in the cold.  somewhere in the general area between hell’s kitchen and times square i walked by a chocolate store–and with the bruises on my ass still prominent i was jarred back to that night. suddenly my crappy day was replaced by a good memory.

so i texted Mistress and let her know. i gave her a condensed version of the story on a text message. we closed our dinner plans a few nights later.

a couple of dates and meetings later–Mistress and i were suddenly in a deep passionate kiss on a street along manhattan’s upper west side-and i was slowly transforming from sub/client to boyfriend.

almost a year has gone by from that first night to now–and we have had our ups and downs in our relationship. but in the end-i am deeply in love with my Mistress-and so this foray into how to be a kinky couple in nyc has blossomed.